As an individual, I believe that I have not really done so much to be an exemplar of the church. Sometimes, I really can not do what I want to do because first, I am shy, second, I make a lot of excuses. Being shy for example, I know I am not super shy, because I know I should not be afraid of judgement, but I should know, and plan what comes out of my mouth, I know that I can just go around, and live out life as an exemplar (like how we said in the text). Another thing is that, I am a messy person. Not only when I comes to my drawer, but also with how I manage my life as a student, I tend to stress myself out, and cram a whole lot, which consumes a LOT of time (emphasis on “A LOT”). I tend to procrastinate, which does not help me with my time management, which does not help with trying to be an exemplar of the church. Though I try to live my life as holy as I can, I am not able to do everything at once. In fact, I sometimes feel that I myself repel the traits of being an exemplar.
There are some of the points of an exemplar that I really try to do, for example. I let others feel God’s presence (In which we fulfill our mark as holy) when I am kind, which I try to be most of the time, when I smile at others who clearly had a bad day, when I try to help someone who dropped some of their things, when people directly or indirectly ask for help, when I encourage a person to not care about judgement, when I handle with my friends (when they are in need of help), especially one of my odd friends who is emotionally unstable. Doing those things would not only help them face their day, but also help them think, and wonder if I am close to God. Sooner or later, (I hope) they would start to do the same to anyone who is in need. This does not only show that God is present within us, but would also do us a favor by making us used to God being present within us, externally, and internally (I am hoping I did not go off)
Another point of being an exemplar which I believe I have. To Respect and to not discriminate anyone, pertaining to the looks, race, color, sexuality, language, preference, status in life and etc because we all have our purpose in the world from God. Accepts everyone in the Church. The only time I learned to really do this was when I had a Major problem in life, and when I barely knew what to do, I barely knew how to react, and I just let my self down. A time when a sensitive (or at least used to be sensitive) topic About me would be talked about Around. When I had almost no self confidence, and would stuff my face with food Just to make myself happy (which explains why I am fat now). I had to go pass through criticism, and discrimination from my peers just to learn one simple lesson I could not understand before. Now I have gone through it, I know what to do. I would do my best to accept anyone with me, and I hope that the rest of the church realizes that too.
There are some other points of being an exemplar of the church which I REALLY a need to improve on. For example: Supporting the activities and actions of the Church. In which shows the unity and oneness of the people. I am actually one of those people who know the importance and value of the practices the church does, yet still doesn’t mind doing it. Even if I know it would help me with getting closer to God, I get lazy to do it, and as I said before, I make excuses not to do the practices. In fact, I try my best to avoid these things.
There is this other one which I am half doing, half not doing. “should be willing to help give a hand to people who are in need and who needs guidance. Without expecting any in return”. I do try to help others as much as possible, but problem is, I am shy. And as I said before, I know that I would not care, but I still get shy. Being shy has stopped me from doing many things, not only the things of an exemplar of the church, even in non church related things, it stops me. But when I actually do help, I am able to show my care, and help others as much possible.
Even if I haven’t really done to much to be an exemplar of the Church, I have done my best, and I have done what I can, which I believe is good enough. Then again “Good Enough” is not good, it’s more of just a passing grade of C or D. Now I really have to improve what I’ve got right now. First, before I do, I have to put my * * together.